They tasted salty and greasy and a tiny bit sad.
I decided today that instead of being a grown up and trying to get over my feelings I would just go order some deep fried noodles and tofu at my favorite Chinese fast food place. Because let's face it, it's way easier to devour a thousand calorie lunch than it is to actually face real life problems!
I'm fairly certain that I'm not the only person that does this.
I'm not saying my life is bad or anything... I am just stressing a little bit at work because I'm covering a maternity leave contract and I'm not certain where I'll end up in July. It's also my brother Johnny's birthday today, he passed away when he was 9 from Cancer. I also have my period and my wedding invitation samples suck.
So I guess I'm just a bit down today, a little stressed and a little bit feeling like "fuck it, I don't care if I die of heart disease! give me all the MSG! pass me the sweet and sour sauce so I can rub it all over my face and mouth..."
Which is silly really because I know that MSG (Monosodium glutamate) is an excitotoxin and I'm very careful to avoid things like this. I probably spend two hours at the grocery store because I'm ingredient obsessed and try to avoid all toxins and preservatives in my food. 90% of the time I even make my sauces from scratch because the bottled stuff scares me.
I can't help but wonder if by eating like shit during these bouts of depression - is it me subconsciously punishing myself? Can eating a massive portion of chemicals and fried food really make us feel any better?
I wish I could finish this blog entry with something positive to say or some solution to this "eating our emotions" problem. But I really don't know how to fix it. I know right now my stomach feels pretty bad and filled with garbage and tonight I'm going to have to do at least double the exercise. That sucks. It also definitely didn't make me feel any better.
xo Breton
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